A new day dawns... I sit by my window and the fog is so thick that I can't see my birds and yet I know they are being warmed by the food I abundantly provided for them yesterday. Just as assuredly I know the sun will eventually drive away the mist.
After a desperately needed wonderful night's rest, I,too, feel as if yesterday's "mist" is being driven away by the Sunshine of His Presence! God never promised us all sunshine, but promised to be with us in the rain. Yesterday was one of those "rainy" days. And yet I'm truly not complaining for Jon's suffering has given me a new reference point on what a "bad day" can actually be.
The children returned to their families who needed them so badly. Our Two have given and cared for us so tenderly. I suppose there was a bit of a "let down" there. And yet, He continues to cloak us with His Presence....the ever sufficient One.
I cooked for hours yesterday for Jon, did a lot of laundry, worked on insurance, etc. Jon was really weak yesterday. Even talking was exhausting for him. I felt such a heaviness as I watched him push his walker slowly around. I think it was a deep fear that he was slipping back...
We have a week to go and I am dancing a merry dance trying to balance his meds and blood sugar.
Finally in the afternoon, I sat in my recliner with relaxing hymns playing. I picked up my Bible and read these words, "I will lift up mine eyes unto the hills, from which cometh my help. My help cometh from the Lord which made heaven and earth!" And then I read this one, "As the mountains are round about Jerusalem, so the Lord is round about His people from henceforth EVEN FOREVER!"
I sat thinking about that and then did a Google search on the mountains around Jerusalem. What excited me the most was the image search. As I looked at those images, I saw HIM! I saw Him surrounding me, promising to be my fortress, my security, my strength!!
It reminded me of the words of Steven Curtis Chapman's song:
We can only know the power that He holds
When we truly see how deep our weakness goes
His strength in us begins, where ours comes to an end
He hears our humble cry and proves again
His strength is perfect when our strength is gone
He'll carry us when we can't carry on
Raised in His power, the weak become strong
His strength is perfect
I am being reminded on this new journey, over and over again, that indeed, His strength is enough! In my weakest moments I can almost physically feel myself slipping into His "safety net!!"
Yesterday was blessed by so many kindnesses...
I chatted on line with a brand new friend from Jon Abram's Mebane church family.
Avon and Joe grocery shopped for us.
Another friend brought us a basket of food
Pastor called last evening with encouraement.
Strength that often comes through the "helping hands" of God's people! Today I am counting my blessings! Well, at least I'm TRYING to.........for how numerous are His thought of me.........
Well, the fog has lifted! Now I can see my birds, just as I knew, even in the midst they were being provided for...
I know He will always "surround me" just as the mountains around about Jerusalem!